Boys suck... throw rocks at them

Okay... so...

Number 1: Nothing is going on between Sparkly Paul and I. Unless someone knows something I don't. Just b/c two people are friends does not mean there's something else going on. This is not When Harry Met Sally. There will be no orgasms in a deli. Or anywhere else.

Number 2: Why is it the one guy I have no real desire to hear from is the only one being truly attentive?

Number 3: California apparently is the abyss.

Number 4: What happens when you get everything you want? Is it over and you move on to something new or do you start changing the rules?

When did I get self-esteem??? Must have been a birthday gift this year. I have made something I wanted happen. I was asked if I was disappointed or weirded out. And no. I wasn't either. That's the weird part. It wasn't weird. I don't even think I can explain. I am still processing.

Survived Thanksgiving and didn't kill any of my family members. Don't want to go back to work on Monday. I just want to fast forward to Christmas and New Year's.

Desperately need sleep.