Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all the moms.

When I was little my mom wasn't working. She went back to work when I was 6, in 1st grade. My favorite memory of her was reading the book "Runaway Bunny." She used to always say, "Because you're my little bunny and I love you." It's about a little bunny who keeps trying to run away but his mother always finds him and brings him back to her.

For mother's day this year, I was in Hallmark and found a really cute stuffed "Boyd's Bears" bunny, holding a little bunny. They were both white, like in the story. So I bought them, and went and bought the book b/c my mom didn't have her own copy. I gave them to her last night for mother's day and made her read it to me just like when I was little.

We heard from the surgeon today. The news wasn't as good as we had hoped. Cancer. She goes to the surgeon tomorrow and he told her to bring her family with her. My sister and I are going. As is my Aunt Pat who went through all of this eight years ago and is still going strong. If I could wish one thing it would be for everyone to have their own Aunt Pat. She is amazing and is really helping my mom through all of this better than any of us can.

My greatest fear

My mom had surgery this morning. It went well. They removed two nodules. One was benign, the other is 'questionable'.

I am trying to be positive, but I am scared. She just turned 70.

I have had this paralizing fear of losing my parents. I don't think I know how to function without them.

Our fish finally died the other night after 28 months. I went this afternoon and bought a new one. Mom wanted a red one. I named him Sox.

The Yankees are pathetic right now. I find amusement in it b/c it shows that you need to be a team to win, not just have A-Fraud and the Big Prick. Cashman (AKA Pipsqueak) needs to go. They are not playing Bernie which pisses me off. They released Karsay (he was not the problem of the bullpen) and they sent Bubba back down. Grrr... I have nothing against Giambi. I don't hate him, but why the hell is he in the lineup???

At least for the first time in a long time, the East Division is interesting. Baltimore, Toronto, Boston, Yankees and Tampa Bay. Who would've thunk it?? Even though the D-Rays are a glorified AAA team, they are a great spoiler. They never lose ALL of their games. And I know it's also early, but still... They are predicting no October baseball in the Bronx this year. That'll be interesting.

Heading to a conference in Rochester tomorrow. Fun, fun, fun...

mjk

Weirder and weirder

Okay... I have had the weirdest month of April. There was that thing earlier in the month with that boy then tonight I met my cousins and two of their friends @ the Country Grove. First of all my cousin Jack was there. Weird in itself. Then this guy Weston that I grew up with was there and recognized me and came over and gave me a big hug and was very chatty. (And drunk) Weston used to torture me as a little kid, but when we were older he was pretty cool. I haven't seen him in over ten years. Then I saw Wayne Carter who came over and said hi... Then this other kid from my neighborhood (his grandfather was the old man that was lying in the road) came and started chatting. It was like having a conversation w/ someone who has ADD. He'd shoot off question after question but not let me reply to them. It was hysterical. He asked for my number and I gave it. *shrug* Whatever. Kinda cute, blonde, tall, blue eyes. His line was a new one, "you're smart, that so hot." He went crazy when I said I had a Master's degree. LMAO

I hardly got to talk to my cousin or ERM and Sharon. Well, I talked to Sharon a bit.

Also, earlier this evening went to see Fever Pitch with my former neighbor. I LOVED it!!! Apparently, I like the Sox more than I thought. Weird. And now I am being IMed by my exboyfriend... Why is it I have been found desirable by every other male in the free world today except for the only one I am actually interested in???? I don't get it. Also, is there anyone in the freeworld that I haven't expressed my feelings about him to? Someone else knew that I DO NOT remember telling. I don't get it. Grrr. It is time to go to bed. I am supposed to meet my family @ 7:30 to go to the Yankees vs. Blue Jays game. I believe, although I will double check it, that Ted Lilly is pitching for the Jays. Whoohoo!!! I love him. He has the best eyelashes in baseball.