Script Re-Write

Hmm... How did we get here? How the hell? (sorry quoting Rent)

All right... where to begin? My ex-boyfriend from eight years ago decided to email me last week telling me that I am the only girl he'd be happy dating at this point in his life. He's looking to settle down, get married, buy a house, have kids. Not sure if all that is with me or not, but I am not waiting around to find out. We have nothing in common, never did.

On a sad note, Eamonn's burned down this morning. My friends and I have spent many interesting and intoxicated nights there. It's sad. Especially after all the McGirr family has gone through.

Can I tell you it was rather disturbing to see Johnny Damon and Manny Ramirez in the dugout. Manny's arm was around Johnny and Johnny's head was on Manny's shoulder. I believe it was a new episode of Queer Eye for the straight guy.

Speaking of which, the Sox on QE was hysterical. Seeing Tek get his back waxed was amusing. Kevin Millar is a dork.

So... California boy is moving back tomorrow. I am remarkably calm about it. Maybe because I knew it was coming since I met him. Last year and the whole girlfriend in California w/ breast cancer came up and then him moving out was a bit terrifying. Since we met in the fall of 2003, he had become one of my best friends. We hung out almost everyday for over four months. We talked about everything and nothing. We didn't have to do anything, we could just spend time together. Since he moved out, we stayed friends much to my surprise. When he graduated last month, he surprised me with his desire to stay here. He and his girlfriend purchased a house here as an investment. He was looking to get a job here.

Then last week, after an afternoon, hanging out by the pool, he tells me that he's moving back. He would be homeless and jobless by the end of June and had no options. I hate the thought of never seeing him again. It makes me sad. We said goodbye last night and it was hard.

It's a weird relationship. I have been completely in love with him practically since we met. Although he says we are just friends, I have never had a friendship like this.

If this were a script of a movie, I would re-write it. I would have him act on the doubts he has about his relationship with the girlfriend and realize how much we belong together. He would decide that he'd be happier here with me than in California without me.

On his job hunt, he found a TOD job for me. I asked where. He said California. He said he thought about waiting another week before he left and having me drive out with him - at least as far as the Mississippi (Private Joke).

Grrr....

On an aside, I had a nice phone conversation with the previously posted "crush". I decided to be brave and call him in response to an email. I like how that feels. Nothing will ever come of him and me, but he's great for self-confidence. Someone that I admire in many ways and who feels I am worth their time. There's a nice comfort level in it.

Sox won. Tek hit a homerun. He made a beautiful play blocking the plate the other day.

Only one full day left of school. Two half days and a 10 am dismissal left. Whoohoo!!!